hate u..but cn i??

hmmm..
its been a while since i didnt post anything..
really bz..
well,actually i juz wanna let all my heart out today..
i dunno whether i can hate him or not..
he is da 1 dat me feel dis way..
dia yg paksa aku jd begini..
jgn slahkn aku..
at dis time n moment,i juz need him in my daily life..
to share my joys,my tears..even a simple story,i want to share it all wif him..
but him??
he thinks dat everyday we msging each other cam bosan,nothing else to say more n always da same thing..
its it da same thing??
no..it is not..
u r da 1 who does not listen to wat i'm saying..wat i'm talking...
u neva care bout me lately dear..
when i tell u bout dis thing(dat u neva care bout me lately) u will say dat i'm da 1 dat too emo bout dis situation...
n u say.."owg laen pon kapel,tp xde la msg ttiap ari..bosan la msg slalu.."
ya ALLAH...bgai kilat mnyambar diri ku..
rase sgt10 pedih..
dia taw x mksod msg bg aku n dia laen..taw x??
mksod msg@sms bg aku:

• dia kesah psal aku
• dia adew kt cc aku
• dia x dpt lpe kn aku
• aku dpt kongsi2 pe2 ngn die

n yg pling pnting...aku rase dia dkat ngn aku blew tiap2 ari msg...
slah ke aku??
aku hnye mngharapkn sumer tueh jew..
bkn wang ringgit,harta..tp hnya mase dia utk aku..
stiap saat aku msg ngn dia,aku amat2 mnghargai msg2 dia,mase dia utk aku..
tp dia??
bru aku tau akhir nya yg dia x kesah pon msg ke x ngn aku..
klu e2 yg dia nk..well,he get it..
aku xkn msg dia..even a single msg..
lantak dia..aku dh ckp,jgn cbar aku..
once dia cabar aku,siap la ngn blasan nyer...
dia x pernah mnghargai aku..
aku nk dia rase kehilangan aku wat smentara..
aku nk lihat dia merana sperti aku merana kerna dia...


p/s=kaki merayu utk melangkah pergi...ttapi hati meraung supaya tidak pergi..